Thursday, November 18, 2010

Whoa I think I'm a grown up.

I don't have anything left for this week of posting (have you noticed I'm trying to post every day?), seeing as my wheat and quinoa bread is, well inedible. Here's hoping Eug doesn't find out that it's inedible because I'm still hoping he'll eat it, but you probably don't want to see pictures. So I'll give you a rundown of the end of my week, instead.

It's hit me over the last while that I'm an adult. I feel like a child in a lot of ways-- it's hard for me to be selfless even if noone's watching. As I was taking laundry down to the basement, I realized it's time for me to grow up: Our basement is creepy and unfinished, but since Noah has been going there a long time (since he was about a week old), he thinks it's the coolest. Or so I thought. Today, I took him down with me and he pretended to be happy and content, until I wanted to let him sit on the floor for a second while I loaded the washer. He grabbed on to my grey pants as though his world would end if I let him go. So I picked him back up, gave him his kissy kisses and came back upstairs. But in that moment I realized someone completely depended on me.

By the end of the afternoon, Noah had knocked over a pot, tried to eat our palm tree (disturbingly, I kind of left him to it for a couple of minutes, he seemed so happy), jumped around for a while and pulled out my vacuum tube while I was trying to pump a little extra milk for him. He also learned how to do somersaults sitting on my lap. A good day.

I came across Enjoying the Small Things this week, and really enjoyed it in it's power to bring me out of the mundane parts of my day. Beautiful photos, beautiful family.

Let's close out the week with a little Michael Franti, my favourite barefoot poet reggae rapper:
So I let go of a broken heart
I let go to an open heart
I let go of my broken dreams
I let go to the mystery
And I believe in the miracles
I believe in the spiritual
I believe in the one above
I believe in the one I love
And take one step closer to you
I just take one step closer to you
Even when I've fallen down
My heart says follow through


Connie said...

franti's song is my favorite song for the week - thanks for sharing!

Concrete Gardener said...

thanks Connie :) . I love that song. I also love track 10 of the same CD "see you in the light". Which I'll paste here, just for fun...

I have been travelling down this river, so many rocks pop up in my sight.
I've got to make some quick decisions, should I go left or should I go right.
I pray for guidance and protection, it keeps my boat water tight.
But, I know if I just keep on believing, every little thing is gonna be alright.

When I wake up in the morning, I hope I see you in the light.
When I wake up in the morning, I hope I see you in the light.

And loveliness,
And tenderness,
And happiness,
And openness,
And togetherness,
And loveliness, yeah, yeah.

The vampires gather around me, angling to take a bite.
They want to drink my blood of courage, and try to take away my fight.
But no, no, no, they can't do that, no, for one truth I've learned in life.
You want to scare away the vampires, you simply guide them into the light.

When I wake up in the morning, I hope I see you in the light.
When I wake up in the morning, I hope I see you in the light yeah.

In the morn, in the morning.
In the morn, in the morning.
In the morn, in the morning.
In the morning.